The Hardest Thing

By Rose Thorne

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"And we cry
These tears of pearl..."
~Tears of Pearl, Savage Garden


Chapter Five
Yukina knocked on Kurama's door. It opened almost immediately after she lowered her hand. The Koorime brushed past her brother's former lover without a word.

Kurama put a hand on her shoulder. "Yukina-chan..."

The Koorime pushed his hand away angrily. "Don't talk to me! Where are his clothes and katana?"

The kitsune pointed toward the bedroom. "Yukina, could you tell Hiei something for me?"

Yukina stiffened. "I'm quite sure that my brother has heard enough from you," she growled icily.

"Please listen to me!" Kurama pleaded. "My mother is trying to force me to marry. Her giving that girl my number was part of her plan. Please tell Hiei that I need his advice on how to avoid getting married to Tesia!" The kitsune sank into a chair. "Tell him that...that I love him." A tear slid down his cheek unnoticed. "And give him this." The fox handed Yukina a rose with a black tear gem in the blossom.

Yukina stared at the tear gem for a moment, then glared at Kurama. "You made him cry! I've never seen him cry before!"

A sob escaped Kurama's lips. "He had a nightmare. I thought he would run away like he usually does if I tried to comfort him. I was going to tell him this morning and ask for his help, but the phone call...and he left..." The kitsune hid his face in his hands, and sobs wracked his body.

The Koorime stared at him for a moment, wanting desperately to believe him, but knowing that his emotions were just a show. She turned away. "Your lies and crocodile tears don't affect me." She walked into the bedroom and shoved some of Hiei's clothes into the duffle bag that waited on the bed. After a moment of consideration, she carefully added the rose. Grabbing the bag and her brother's katana, she stalked from the room. "You've hurt my brother enough. What you did to him was unforgivable." She started to let herself out.

"Wait!" Kurama cried hoarsely. He got up, still crying, and got Hiei's boots and cloak. "Tell him I'm sorry, and that I understand and am sorry that he hates me...And I'm sorry that you hate me, Yukina-chan." He let her out, then closed and locked the door behind her. The kitsune managed to walk to the living room before he collapsed on the couch, sobbing.

Hiei's musky, delicious scent lingered on the cushions that he had spent the night on, and Kurama cried harder at the realization that his lover had spent the night on the sofa, and not in bed. Our last night together...and it wasn't even spent together! The fox managed to stop crying after a while, and went to push himself off the couch, when his hand landed on something small and hard. Picking the object up, he realized that it was a tear gem.

The kitsune looked down. There was another tear gem between the cushions. He slid his hand down and felt more. Concerned now, Kurama got up and pulled out the couch cushions. He sank to his knees as at least forty tear gems greeted his eyes. He cried all of these last night? Or last night and the night before? Hiei had never cried so much in the entire time that Kurama had known him, not even collectively! To have caused his beautiful fire demon to cry that much in only two nights was a heinious crime and inexcusable. Kurama wanted to die, he felt so dispicable. How could I have done this to him? What kind of monster am I?

Kurama forced himself to get to his feet and went to the bedroom, collapsing on the bed and curling into a fetal position. He cried himself to sleep.

* * *

Hiei was sitting at the table when Yukina entered the temple. "Oniisan, I was able to get your things." Hiei only shrugged, not seeming to care. "Niisan, I'm sorry," Yukina whispered, sitting across from him.

Hiei didn't look at her. "I can't stay here," he whispered, almost inaudibly.

Yukina frowned. "You can stay here," she said. "It's not a probl-"

"I can't stay in the Ningenkai."

The Koorime stared at her brother. "What?! Why?"

Hiei swallowed hard. "I...just can't. It...it hurts too much..."

"But Mukuro-"

The Forbidden Child laughed harshly, no humor in the sound. "I can handle her, not that I care."

"Oniisan...onegai, don't go," Yukina whispered, tears escaping her. "You'll be killed, and you know it."

Finally, Hiei looked at her. "I have to go. I can't live here anymore, not knowing that..." His voice cracked slightly and he hesitated before continuing. "...that Kurama loves somebody else. I can't." His eyes were frighteningly full of sorrow. "I'd rather die than live in the same world as him, and never see him again. At least...in the Makai, I can try to forget..." He looked away again, closing his eyes.

Another tear slipped down Yukina's face to form a perfect tear gem. "I understand, Oniisan." She rose and walked to his side, embracing him. "I really do."

He trembled slightly in her arms, and a dark tear gem fell to the floor. Hiei pulled away. "Thank you, Yukina," he whispered. He took his things into another room. After a few minutes, the fire demon came back out, fully dressed with his cloak on. The katana was under his cloak again, and the bag of suppies and belongings was on his shoulder. "Goodbye." He was gone, leaving an open window and a crying sister behind.

Yukina sobbed harder, knowing with horrible certainty that she would never see her brother again.


Daaa...I'm always mean to Hiei-chan! I would be telling y'all how mean Thayet says I am, but she hasn't had a chance to read even chapter 4 yet! Ah, well. I know how mean I am. Hiei-chan makes sure I know!

Hiei: *disgustedly* Che! I would know, wouldn't I?

Rose: *grins* Yup! You're an expert on that subject!


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