Disclaimer: The song Believe belongs to Cher and Warner Bros, as well as the producers Brian Higgins, Stuart McLennan, Paul Barry, Stephen Torch, Matt Gray and Tim Powell. Yu Yu Hakusho belongs to Yoshihiro Togashi, Studio Perriot, TV Tokyo, Shounen Jump, and anyone else who helped produce this series.
No matter how hard I try You keep pushing me aside
[Kurama smiles at Hiei, saying something nice. Hiei glares at him and says something rude in return. Kurama seems to take it in stride, but underneath the smile, his heart is breaking to see his friend so bitter.]
And I can't break through There's no talkin' to you
[Kurama tries to entice Hiei to talk, to laugh, to show any emotion. The fire demon ignores it all, giving Kurama's efforts no attention whatsoever. The fox sighs in frustration, knowing that Hiei understood; the youkai wasn't stupid.]
It's so sad that you're leavin' It takes time to believe it But after all is said and done You're gonna be the lonely one...ohhh
[Hiei informs the team that he intends to go to the Makai to live. Kurama is surprised and hurt, but he hides it under his ever-present, false smile and asks Hiei to come visit sometime. The fire demon scowls at him and asks why he should bother, considering that he hates the Ningenkai and everything in it.]
Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough, no Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say, I really don't think you're strong enough, no
[Kurama continues his daily activities after Hiei leaves, but his heart isn't in it. Hiei took it when he left. The fox sinks into a deep depression, but continues to keep his false smile on his face. Nobody senses anything awry.]
What am I supposed to do? Sit around and wait for you? Well I can't do that And there's no turnin' back I need time to move on I need love to feel strong 'Cos I've had time to think it through N' maybe I'm too good for you, ohhh
[After months, Kurama decides to give up, knowing he'll die of sorrow if he continues to mourn Hiei's absence. He tries dating, tries convincing himself that Hiei didn't deserve him, but he fails miserably.]
Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough, no Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough, no
[Kurama's depression deepens so badly that his masks cracks. He stops dating and going out at all, preferring to drown his sorrows with liquor.]
Well I know that I'll get through this 'Cos I know that I am strong And, I don't need you anymore I don't need you anymore I don't need you anymore No, I don't need you anymore
[In an alcoholic state, Kurama can convince his mind that he didn't need Hiei, that he never had. But when the drunkenness leaves him, he feels even worse than before.]
Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough, no Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say, I really don't think you're strong enough, no.
[Kurama vows never to drink again. The phone rings but he leaves it, not wanting to talk to anyone. The answering machine picks it up. Yuusuke tells him that they had found out that Hiei had died, trying to come back to the Ningenkai. All of the enemies he had acquired over the years had joined forces and hunted him down. He hadn't stood a chance. That was the reason he had never come back. He was dead...And his death had not been easy. Kurama grabs a bottle of liquor, tears rolling down his cheeks at his loss, and drowns his sorrow in a bottle again, drinking more than he had ever managed before. He falls asleep, the bottle falling to the floor. ]
Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough, no
[When Yuusuke comes the next day to check on Kurama, worried by the fact that the fox never returned his calls, he finds the body. Kurama sits with an empty liquor bottle on the floor and a true smile on his face, very different from the false ones Yuusuke has always seen. The ningen suddenly realizes something and slumps to the floor in tears.]
Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say, I really don't think you're strong enough, no
Well, my Hiei/Kurama death fic...the FIRST one! Written in five minutes...seriously! Oh, and what Yuusuke realized is that Kurama died to be with Hiei.
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