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Disclaimer: None of these characters are mine. Please don't assume that they are or I'll end up getting sued. They belong to Yoshihiro Togashi, Studio Perroit, and any other person who helped in the creation of this wonderful series. Thank you for giving me my Hiei-san!!
Chapter 8: Depression
"'Cause it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you"
-Wake Up, Alanis Morissette
Kurama bugs me to stop blaming myself. But it's my fault. I have no one else to blame. I am the one to blame.
It only takes a few weeks for Koenma to decide that we needed to train for fights without Kuwabara. That means that I have to go to Genkai's. And face Yukina's hatred. According to Kurama, Shizaru convinced her not to try to kill me. I almost wish she hadn't. Yukina used to treat me kindly. She won't anymore. I know that.
Kurama and I go to Genkai's. I avoid Yukina as much as possible. When I have to be around her, she snubs me, not even acknoledging my presence. I don't bother eating with everyone else. I kill a rabbit and eat that.
I stay as far away from the temple as possible. Kurama stays with me as much as he can. I spend my time sharpening the new katana that Genkai gave me. I didn't want it, but she made me take it.
Around mid-day, I sense Yukina's ki. It's heading toward me. I sheath the katana and start to leave. Then she calls out to me.
"Hiei-san," she calls. I am surprised. She actually used an endearment with my name. I wait. "I need to speak to you."
I turn around and look at her, staying three feet away from her. "What is it, Yukina-san?"
"Hiei-san...I want to apologize." I stare at her in shock. Apologize? "I lost my temper. I shouldn't have hurt you."
I look away from her. "You have a right to hate me. I killed Kuwabara." Glancing at her, I continue. "I lost control."
She nods. "I understand." She smiles at me, a smile that hasn't been directed at me in weeks. "I hope you can forgive me."
"I'm the one who should be asking for forgiveness, Yukina-san."
"I do forgive you," she says.
I feel as if a huge weight is lifted from my heart. "A-arigato, Yukina-san," I say looking at the ground.
She moves closer. My instincts scream at me to back away, but I know she won't hurt me. She forgave me. She stops less than a foot from me. "I do forgive you," she says again. I am confused. Why is she repeating herself. She lunges at me. "As long as you die!"
I am too startled to move. She slashes at my face with the dagger that has suddenly appeared in her hand. At my forehead. Pain clouds my senses.
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Oops...I did it again...Gomen!
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